chapter 20

i was shocked and i looked into his eyes and i said

me: jaraa7 ! are you serious?

jara7: mala7thtay all those years i tried to show you but u never cared about me

me: madry shagolk jara7 i ... i'm shocked.. im speechless.

jara7: ee i know le'anna u love shamlan you are never going to give me a chance

me: tawne adre jara7

jara7: le hal daraja entay ghabya! belzwara ma ag3ad ela ma3ach w ma asolf ela weyach w a6al3ch, agolich add me tgolen ana maswe add 7g boys elkel mla7eth ela entay ma a36e wala bent wayh kethr ma a36ech and u don't ever think about me

me: i never thought u will have feelings for me youre just like my brother

jara7: things change! i saw that e7na ... we're better together men kena 9ghar w i liked you !

me: i'm speechless jara7

jara7: never mind emshay dakhel

i went with him to the chalet

i was so shocked that i didn't eat my dinner 

i directly went to the room and thought a lot

actually over thinking is killing me
i don't know what to do!

the next day 7darna
i went home

home sweet home

i told shamlaan

shamlan: sadaaan wakhraay 3anah w belzwara latg3deen ma3ah kela tg3den ma3a omech

i know ena shmlan 39aby w yghar 3ley bs still jara7 yakser kha6re
he is my cousin i cant leave him suddenly.

me: shamlaaaaan he is my cousin shloun awakher, 3anah meny wel6reej ?

shmlaan: ee :)

me: sorry i cant first ohwa my cousin  y7z bkha6ra second elkel beyla7eth , i dont want to hurt him im not heartless.

shmlan: and you care about him? 3ogb ely sawah fech?

me: yup i care & he did the right thing y3ne ychouf his cousin ma3a 9bay shnu tabe yswe yskt w 3ade shnu mu rayal ? w ohwa 7sbat okhuy ma artha 3aleh

shamlan: okaay bs jara7 is over reacting ! w wayed etdaf3een 3anah sadaan nsaitay 3umrech?

me: no i didn't ana wagfa ma3a el7ag 

shamlan: okaaay :)

me: don't be sad

shamlan 7agarne :c

so its our first fight !
both of us ga3d en3aned ba3ath

the next day...

shamlaan: PING!!!

me: halla

shamlaan: i miss u!

me: :$ aww me too

shamlan: i cant live without you

.....

days passed toooo fast
school started

lucky me
leens b9afe

reem and ghayda brou7

its the last year in school

so i gotta study hard and do my best